Sylvia called me from work today (I was home on my day off) and told me it was okay with her if I tested... so I did.
12dpo: BFN
I was actually strangely calm about the result. "It's still early," I told myself. Then went to the fridge and got a plate of cookies and a glass of milk and curled up in bed. And started making a mental list of all the heavy things in the house I need to lift before IUI #2 if this cycle doesn't work out. And had pizza for dinner and didn't eat a single vegetable all day long.
In other(?) news, I have been having lots of strange cramps. Some are stabbing pains just barely above my pubic bone, and others are more "cramp-like" (if that makes any sense at all-- of course I am over-analyzing everything!). I don't usually cramp until day two of a period, but I know the progesterone supplements could be throwing me off my "usual".
Apparently I am not the only one who tests early then wonders if it means they are out of the game: when I started typing my search into Google, it came up with the search phrase "12 dpo bfn then bfp" with 29,700 results. Search results, that is; not 29,700 people who said they got a bfp after a 12 dpo bfn, unfortunately.
Despite my better judgement, I am still clinging to hope.
Hope is not a bad thing. We went for IUI #1 today and our office told us not to test early. The nurse was pretty ridgid about it. She said with medicated cycles the chances of a false negative it too high. Hang in there - just a few more days :-)
ReplyDeleteWishing you the best today! Big hugs regardless of what the outcome is.
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